Passion

So, I was inspired by a friend's blog about things he is passionate about.  It got me thinking, what is there in my life that I am truly passionate about? It doesn't seem like there really is much at the moment.  I feel a bit unfulfilled in life.  The things I am most passionate about at the moment seem to be tv, food, sleep, Facebook, and MLIA.

One thing I did realize that I am passionate about is my relationships with people.  I like to think that I'm a good friend, that my friends can come to me whenever.  I also like to think that I give pretty good advice.  Correct me if I'm wrong, please.

Another thing I am passionate about is laughing.  I LOVE to laugh.  Even more, I love to laugh when the laughing is brought on by a friend.  Sure, MLIA and Teen Girl Squad are hilarious, but laughing with friends is just ten million times better.
Along with laughing, I am passionate about being my crazy, weird, random, loud self.  Sadly, I don't always act like myself.  Sometimes, I'm quiet and actually rather shy.  It is actually rather rare that I am truly acting like myself.  Just like everything else in my life, it pretty much depends on my mood.  When I get hyper and crazy, I'm actually being myself.  When I'm genuinely happy, I'm being myself.  Usually, if I'm in any sort of subdued mood, I'm not being myself.

The last thing I am passionate about (that I've thought about tonight, at least) is understanding.  Probably more than anything else in life, I want to understand.  One of my biggest fears is going into a situation that I don't fully comprehend.  I deal with things SO much better when I fully comprehend them.
This is probably one of the reasons I enjoy hearing about other people's lives.  Not just the surface stuff.  The deep stuff.  I want to truly understand people.  So, if I poke and prod and pry into your life too much, I'm sorry.  It's not really intentional.  It just kind of happens.  I am usually a very very open person myself, so I guess I expect everyone else to be the same way.
Along with that, I especially want to understand the Gospel.  As a whole, I understand it, and  I have a wonderful and firm testimony of it. But I want to know more.  I want to know everything.  All the little things.  This is why I love Institute.   I get so many insights into the little things from the people in my classes.  I thoroughly enjoy it.  It's about 200 times better than Seminary.  Seminary was great, don't get me wrong.  But in Institute, people are there because they truly want to be.  I think this is true even moreso in the random elective classes (like Writings of John the Beloved), because there are people in the class who took that specific class for a reason, because they are passionate about that specific subject.  So you get people who have deeply studied the things pertaining to what we're learning in class, and they happen to have tons of insights into the little things.  For example, the word Elohim.  I think that this 'little insight' may just deserve it's own whole post.  Who cares about sleep?
Anyway. One of the main reasons I try to stay faithful and righteous is because I know that when I get to the Celestial Kingdom, all of those little things will be explained.  I hope heaven is a classroom.  Honestly.  And I hope that the teachers are people like Joseph Smith, John the Beloved, Moses, Abraham, Nephi, Abinadi, basically, all those cool people that I love.  Above all, I want to be taught 'little insights' by Christ.  Now that would be something.

So, now that I've rambled on forever.. And it's 2 in the morning.. It might finally be bedtime.
I hope that some of this made sense. If not, oh well. Writing this helped my mind be a little less scatterbrained.

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